Well, I just woke up & I'm pretty much bored, tired, relaxed, etc. I miss my best friend. I don't know what I would do without her. She's like my lifeline. I would do anything for her and she would do the same. No doubt about it. I could rely on her and trust her with my darkest secrets.
I can't stand this, you being away. If I close my eyes, will you come to me? You don't have to make everything all right. You don't have to do anything. I just want you here. Just for a second.
Remember avid?
Somehow, even though our teacher moved our seats around, we would alway find a way to talk. Pink notebook. Neon-colored index cards. Plain sheets of paper. Our planners. You name it, we'd write on it and pass it back & forth. No one could stop us. And if someone tried, we always devised another plan. It was amazing.
Remember your body guard status?
I know I was afraid of this dude I was totally crushing on. I built this plan in my head that I didn't want him to make me seem like a stalker. Hence, during lunch, we came up with a plan: you became my body guard & watch me and crusher dude every step of the way. Now, I must've been extremely paranoid. But...that was middle school. The dude after crusher dude was a much bigger dilemna.
I hated you for moving. For leaving. I hated you so much. I hated you almost as much as I hated myself. But I can look in the mirror now and face what I see. Me there & you not by my side. But I always know you'll be by my side. I'll always remember our emails and telling me that everything will be okay.
Wherever I go I'll always see you. Malls. Bookstores. Parks. I love you, hon. I love you for being you. Best of wishes in West Virginia.
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