Sinking Into Indigo.

Well, as soon as you think I've recovered...it hits me as hard as it did from the first time. I've never felt so lonely in my life. I thought that if I was strong enough, I could get over it. Hence, life would be easier and I would have discovered a new way to cope. I know I can't do this alone. I can just picture the utter disappointment and disapproval etched on my parents faces. They wouldn't understand. And I don't think they want to understand in fear that their daughter is...gambling with her life. People ask me how I'm doing, but they don't want to know. They seek affirmation that I'm doing okay, that I appreciate their sheer concern...that life goes on & so can they. Secretly, they wonder when they can stop asking to forget the one thing that I never will.